because i'm too lazy for pictures.

it'd come later. 

For now, its just gonna be words.

Lately, I haven't been seeing the importance of Christmas. Or birthdays. Previously it has always been a big deal. But of late, it has been just dates to me. Arbitrary dates. Because no one can say for sure that Baby Jesus was in a manger on 25th December, or that an angel appeared to Mary on 25th March. Birthdays are the same. As long as you get one day in the whole year when people celebrate you for who you are, and appreciate you, I don't see why it has to be on 21st December.

I still feel the same way. But as I spend my Christmas eve and Christmas writing holiday cards to everyone important, I find myself realizing how important some people are to me and how much I have under appreciated each one of you. I find myself writing things like "I know we haven't met up in awhile, but I still treasure you and thank God for you", a few times too many. Truth is, its not because we have conflicting schedules or because we have no time. Its also because how our lives have changed. Changed such that what is happening in the other person's life is something that cannot be comprehended emotionally, but cognitively. And it sucks when you cannot feel how someone, whom  you love dearly and deeply, is feeling. And that stops me from meeting you, because of how I can't understand you.

I don't see where I am going with this, either. But I guess what I'm trying to say is this. Christmas and birthdays are important because it gives you the opportunity to remember those who love you, and those that you love. The real ones. Not the ones that say it but are hollow with the actions. But the ones that keep you in prayer, hide it when they're disappointed, and still love you without conditions. Those are the people I want to keep in my life. And I know I don't say it enough. But I love you and I treasure each one of you :)

There is so much good to be thankful for that I so often turn a blind eye on. 

On another note, I am glad that another chapter of my life closes. A chapter that was headed for doom from the start. I don't believe in regrets because with every wrong turn, lessons are learnt. Too often, we are told to listen to our hearts. I still believe in it. But the head can never be totally ignored. We are logical and emotional creatures and elusive happiness can only be found when both the head and the heart are in agreement.

SO. To hell with anything that brings tears and cheers to positivity.

Blessed CHRISTmas to all :)